what a bloop day ...

today kinda sucked. it started off okay ... even though i had a midterm. i was able to sleep in a little ... studied and read all the stuff for the Astronomy midterm ... then got to class early. though the buses were really crazy packed ... i was sitting and the girl standing next to me was extremely close to me. she was like leaning on me and her sling bag was like on me and then swung in front of me. she didn't move either ... even after i pushed her bag and stuff. then the girl next to me blew her nose and all this tissue paper dust flew all over the place. ewwww!!!! then she got off at Stones and then the lady sat next to me and she smelled really bad. kinda like medicine but with a hint of funk. gross. i tried to hold my breath from Stones to State but i had to take a couple breaths in between. the first one i sucked in all that nasty smell and then i turned away to breathe. then i tried to like jump off the bus to breathe good air.

I hate the bus. weird smells, gross people, inconsiderate people, all sorts of other not happy things.

then i got food with Anna after our midT which was good. but then when i walked to the bus stop the sign said 23 minutes. Outrageous!!! it didn't come for like 35 minutes. then i decided to get off on Taraval to catch an L bus cause they usually come quickly, but not today. i had to wait like another15 minutes. then the 3 block walk was full of weird people that i would have like to avoid. then i was able to relax in the comfort of my own home and watch some TV, eat, and be happy. food always makes things all better.

then since my dad twisted his ankle today, he asked me to drive to the school to get my brother ... which i didn't want to do ... and then there's all this other crap when we get home about dishes. geez ... i mean i try to soak something and since he didn't see it and spilled water on the floor, i get in trouble. args.

then during dinner there's always the never good "you should be a .... " talk. today it was a nurse. i've told my mom that i can't do blood, yet she still pushes it. then my dad jumped in and it made me feel kinda bad. i mean it's like everyone is against what i want to do. i wanna do marketing, but no one really supports it. although today was partly my fault because i asked about getting a blood test and then it spiraled into this. all i wanted to know was how much it was and my mom said it's free for us. then they ask why and i want one because i think i might have a thyroid problem. then my dad started saying things that basically meant "you're crazy to worry about that so young. you're too paranoid." i mean i probably don't but when i went to the doctor a few months ago, she felt my throat and asked if i have a history of it in my family. i don't but i can still have it cause it's very common. i really don't wanna get a blood test but i should just do it to calm my nerves and thoughts. and now i also have trouble swallowing. i think it's cause i'm sick with a sore throat but i don't remember feeling like this before. so many issues.

and to top it all off ... i have all this school work that needs to be done this week. Accounting problems that shouldn't take too long, then a mini quiz for that class too ... and i forgot to buy more scantrons. ughs! then my Thursday class has a small research paper due, and my group presentation is in 2 weeks and we haven't started our research. i also have to go to a Mexican restaurant with my group so we can build a menu as part of the project too ... but that's just on Thurs. after class. i also have a quiz for my ISYS computer class on Thursday... and i haven't been doing so good on those. must study this time.

i'm really not liking this week. school sucks.

right now i just want to stay in bed and watch hours of Gilmore Girls and not have a care in the world. at least "The Hills" is on tonight which will be good. another full hour too. though i hope that since they've been showing 2 episodes the past two weeks, that there will be less days for episodes. uh-oh.

right now my only calmer is music (stop and stare by one republic, i know by billy miles, damaged by danity kane, teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift, take a bow by rihanna, and some others), television, eating, sleeping, and friends.

when will the craziness be over? [ right now i think never! ]

i need art in my life again to feel better .....

i really need to just get away .... far far away!!!!!!