that's how the cookie crumbled ...

i love how my day can be pretty good and sometimes actually super fun. but without fail someONE(s) will always just shoot it down the hole and make it into a crap crap crapper.

i hate it!!!!!

so yea ... my day was pretty bomb ... slept in, work was alright, saw Anna, got a present, chilled at the granparents' place with the fam fam, dinner was yum yum, we all wathced house bunny together, made plans for sushi tomorrow, even played around and sang and made a video on a mac .... (that was all fine and dandy, fun stuff)

then it all just went down the hole ............

chillin with my fam fam

Christmas was cool .. got fun stuff! like my parents got me an iPod Touch ... awesome!!! :D

but it sucks cause i had to work all freakin weekend ... deal with all these dumb customers and crap ... sooo many people that ask some crazy things and expect you to do everything for them. man ... i hate those really uptight customers that are soo cheap and want you to do overrides and stuff.

well ... i get the next couple days off and get to finally relax!!!

woohoo!!! i love having no school too! :D

YAY! yippee YAHOO heck yes baby BOOYAH!!!!!!!

i passed everything!!!!!!!!!

i was soooooo terrified that i was gonna fail ACCT 101, but today grades were posted and I got the C- so I'm in the clear! BUT man did i BOMB!!!! that last exam ... got a frakin 48% ... i was like SHITTT oh no don't tell me i got a D and have to retake it. but he gave me the C-... awesome.

and then for ISYS i was soooo disappointed in myself that i did bad on the final and got the B+ in the class. And while i was takin the final i felt like I knew the stuff and would do alright .... GUESS NOT! I wanted the A so bad since i was doing so well on everything else. BUT THEN, he sent out an email today saying he added some points to the grades because he was feeling generous. So by a miracle i got the A-!!!! (although i do think he took pity on me since i got 89 point something % after the extra points, but he just gave me the A- not the B+)

I LOVE SUPER NICE TEACHERS!!!! THEY ROCK MAN!!!

on the other hand i did get a B in MKTG ... which is really sucky concidering it was an easy online class, just the final was freakin 50% of my grade and in class! whatever ... at least i didn't get a C. I really don't know how I got soooo many questions wrong on that final, i studied and stuff before and thought i was gonna do ok. Then i started the final and i was like, "SHIT SHIT SHITTY SHIT WTH are these questions! I've never seen them before in my life!" But i just stuck with my plan that if i really got stuck then i would just guess A since a crap load of the Qs were A for the answer! (hilarious)
OH YEA ... and i was sooo scared that i wouldn't get in to take the final at all since i was signed up for the wrong time and was just gonna go try to add in for the 3PM test. but then there was like a hella long line for to get in and i was literally like the last person she let in .... thank God!!!

okay ... so i think i should be ok for grades this semester ... just my GPA is gonna suffer major! which really sucks since i've had such a good GPA thus far, i've been on the Dean's List like all my semesters ... o wells, classes are only getting harder and i don't think i'd be able to keep my grades up anymore.

my grades should be:
ACCT C- . MKTG B . IBUS A . ISYS A- . ETHS A (hopefully) . and HM B (hopefully)

now imma get to wrapping some Christmas presents and then start studying for HM 351 (my last) final. woohoo!!!

ahhhhckk

ok ... so 4 down, and 2 go!!!

may need to retake one tho ...

gotta study study study for ACCT now ... yuck!

blehhhhhhhhhhh

2 down ... 4 to go!!!!

ETHS .. done .. sad but happy
IBUS ... took it .. did aright .. may take again.

but the torture continues:
ISYS and MKTG tomorrow.

then cramm time on Wednesday

ACCT final on TH

break .... study on the weekend

and last piece of crap final on MON the 22nd .. freakin 3 days before Chrismas ... dang HM 351 and stupid J Liu!!!!

aiyah!!!

man i am sooo freakin SCREWED!!!!!

well at least i got some of my Christmas shopping done today!! (despite some technical diffiulties at H&M ... grrrr stupid girl!)

well ... gotta sget back to studying ... SIGH

CRAP CRAP CRAP

i really hate finals time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just can't take all this stress anymore.... there's just WAYYYY too much crap that i have to do now. Soooo many of my teachers made the final either cumulative or worth a big ass chunk of my grade. And also practically all of my finals are freaking MEMORIZING like thousands of questions and will either make or break me this semester!!!

so baiscally i am screwed for MKTG and ISYS, i must get like a 60% in ACCT to get the C-, and my HM 351 final is freakin 3 days before Christmas (sucks). The only one that I'm not too worried about is my IBUS final cause i can just ctrl F all the way man!!! LOL

So far i have 1 down and a 5 million more to go!!! Thank God ETHS was just the POP! skit and not a test - IRENE DULLER is sooo freakin awesome!!! <3

okay best get back to my doom that is studying and doing last minute crap that i procrastinated on!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

heck yes man!!!!!

OMG! i love today!!!!

so i read an email from my ISYS professor and it was awesome news! he said he re-evaluated where we are in the class and how much time we have left and he took off some assignments. :D He had already said he'd drop the lowest forum grade, therefore no need to do Forum 4 for me. he said "if you are happy with your grade thus far for the first three then you're okay." Then today he said the same thing for the Individual Excel Assignment 2!! BOOYAH!!! so now i can not do that too. Also he mentioned that Quiz 5 is optional but it'd be good to do it to prepare for the final. So i dunno what to do about that .. i'll prob take it to boost my quiz grades, but only if i can remember all the crap from the practice quiz ... hahaha

then i was soooo extremely glad that it only took me 2 tries for the 10/10 on the Marketing quiz!!! awesome because i usually take like 7 + tries to get the dang 10. i've spent like a whole night, attempt after attempt, doing a quiz before - freakin 13 tries ... craziness!

Now i just need to do the IBUS quiz and start thinking about the HM presentation. Also i MUST start cramming for the MKTG FINAL!! freakin 50% of my grade and i know exactly nothing about the material!!! CRAPPPPPPP! i guess tonight i will do my other poetry blog for ETHS and then the quiz and chill! yay.

at the moment ...

i am just ...


CHILLING.
LETTING the food coma subside.
WAITING for the torturous day of 6AM black friday to be over.
LISTENING to music to pass the time and cause music gets you through all.
DEBATING on what to do next.
WANTING to get my tattoo so bad!
CRUSHING ... crush crush crush
THINKING about it all.
WONDERING what is instore.
HATING the last stretch.

how do you feel?

i may be a little crumpled...

but not quite broken.

INFATUATE: to inspire with a foolish or extravagant love or admiration

ahhh ... so much crap coming up!

so yay ... tomorrow is Thanksgiving! ready to eat eat eat! :D
then Friday will be pretty intense. Opening at 6AM. then i get off at 230 and am gonna go chill with friends who came back for the holiday.
and then on Saturday, we open early again at 730 (dunno why) and i get off at 330. after work imma go celebrate Katrina's birthday and she wants to go karaoke-ing on Fillmore and then get dinner somewhere. yay!

but after all this caotic work and scheduled fun ... it's gonna be straight to H E double chopsticks!

the week starts out fine ...maybe work on Sunday. and just school and stuff on Monday and Tuesday.
then Wednesday is gonna totally suck butt. first i have to go to work in da morning (wake up at 7AM) and do the statements at my mom's place. then i should go home and sleep and then i gotta go to work at 5. but it gets worse ... we're doing a dumb overnight floorset. so i don't get off until freakin 130AM!!! WTF!!!! stupid work. and then in less then 7 hours i have to get to my class at 810AM. AHHhhhhhh ....
Thursday should be normal ... school crap.
Friday should be alrighty ... just chill and then go to work from 1 to 5.
Saturday should be like any other and i'll just work. although hopefully people don't F up the store and we'll have to stay cleaning up til past 11PM ... and yes extended hours suck!!!

oh man .... school stuff to worry about:
MKTG quiz due Monday night at 1155
IBUS quiz due Wednesday night at 9
ISYS part 4 of group project due Thursday
--- crap ... when would we meet up?? args
ETHS poetry journal posts and other journals .... dangit!!!
ETHS final POP! thingy
HM group presentation
ACCT HW

Fracker!!! and finals are coming up too ... doom!

Woohoo!!!

so our much needed week off for Thanksgiving has finally been kicked into high gear!

after Thursday i was finally done with all my crap for school ... i did my accounting homework, got 100 on my Access quiz, finished & uploaded my Access Assignment, and i emailed my IBUS survey.

THEN Friday was just a fun and chill day. First i met up Connie at school and we chatted for a lil bit while she waited for her professor. then i met up Angelica at her class at 12 and we went to Stonestown to hit up the bank, for me to get my paycheck, and check out cases at the Apple store. After that we walked back to school to meet up Kathy to have lunch and watch a movie at her place. We had yummy clam chowder and bread and then watched Baby Mama. Anna dropped by and we just chilled and watched TV.

then we all went to Naan N Curry for dinner for Kathy, (my group member) Ben, and my food class. It was the four of us and Ben, his girlfriend Julianne, and Athena. It was good that he Athena came along cause it made it a little less awkward since Anna and I know her from middle school. Well the food was delicious, we all just chilled and talked about school, work, and whatever. Then we split, and we went back to Kathy's place and just reminisced about the old days. (man we're getting old if we can say "old days". aiyah) -- we were originally gonna try to figure out somewhere to actually and do something but we couldn't really decide on anything so we just chilled.

Now i am no longer an Indian Food virgin! haha ... well i totally wanna go back and have another fun night out chillin over some good food.

well ... right now im just killin time before i have to go to work ... maybe i'll catch up on Gossip Girl episodes. Oh yeah .. can't wait for Tuesday!!! going up to Davis for Fuji's again with Kathy, Ben, and Anna :D should be fun as usual. hooray!

almost done ....

fianlly this school week is almost OVER!!!
just finished taking the dang Access Practice test and now i think im ready for the quiz. hopefully i do well ...
then i have to sit through Accounting (oh crappp forgot to print out the chapter outline! o wells)
and then FREEDOM!!!

but after that gotta finish my individual access assignment and then i'm totally free!
and after that ... shoppin with the Ko0nii and then free movie with katherz. :D

hopefully i can actually enjoy this week off ... and not get all consumed by work and crap. ahhhh

oh man ... then gotta go get Inidan food with Kathy and Ben on Friday for our dumb food class ... that should be fun. I can so see stupid J Lui saying "don't use a fork!!! use your hands to experience it all!" man crazy lady.

well i shall be off to take my quiz soon.
args ..... so hungry!

let the countdown begin ...

aiyah ... this week is just crazy ...
there is just sooo much junk that i need to get done.

SCHOOL IS JUST .... ERGS!!!
can't for it to end and then i can relax a little and enjoy the week off!!!

well so far, i took my MKTG quiz on Monday as usual, and then the rest is still to come.

For the rest of the week I have:

- IBUS quiz due Wed @ 9PM

- must finish up the ISYS pretest to prepare for the quiz

- ISYS quiz on TH in lab on Access
- ISYS Individual Access Assignment due on Fri .

(almost done.. just gotta do the queries and reports)

- i need to start thinking about my HM 351 Final Presentation

- also brainstorm for my ETHS final POP! performance.

- and also do some much needed journals...

args ... i hate school!!! but at least this week is almost over ... only 3 more days!!!

Well, Friday Angelica, Kathy, and I will celebate the fact that this sucky week is done and just chill. but also once this week is over it's crazy work time! the joys of Black Friday and having a retail job... Speaking of work, we can finally start having soem structure again cause we have a new Assistant and Store Manager! (Jenny is pretty cool ... lets hope that the new guy SM is too.) I can't believe all the crap adn stress that's been happening since we have been running with only an Assistant and a Sales Lead for the past few months. craziness ... but it should all change for the better now.

Currently, my playlist is:

Crush by David Archuleta

Natural High by Colby O Donis feat. T Pain

One Step At A Time by Jordin Sparks

--- well my head is all over the place and i don't really know what to do. one day i'm up the next i'm down ... then just think .... i guess we'll have to see what happens next in the life of Sharon Lee. will it all end well? who knows ...
OH YES ... and i really super badly wanna get my tattoo .. and i WILL go in January.

I think you can tell the 2 things that have been on my mind lately and if not o wells ... they are and i can't seem to make it stop .. but then again i don't think i want them to go away ...

i think i've fallen ...

HOLY CRAP MAN !!!!!!!!!

so today was supposed to be a chill day ... no school and no work. Guess what? it wasn't!
originally i was just supposed to hang out with Connie, Katrina, and maybe Bonny and then go home and relax (maybe fix my computer or do some homework).
But then i get a call from work, askin if i could come in for a few hours cause it crazy. well i sad i had to go to the library and then get some other stuff, but i'll call later on to see where i am and i may be able to come in later.
So i figured that i could just chill out with C and K for like 3 or 4 hours then do mid at work from 6 to 9 (therefore i don't have to close). SO me being the nice person that i am, called work back and said just that.

AND here's what went down:
My dad drove C and i to Irving so i could get my books. (and this is where the bad shit all started) When we got there, the freakin library was CLOSED! i totally forgot that DUH today's a holiday ... Veteran's day ... of course it's closed. C and i just decided to walk around Irving and wait for K to join us. (well some good stuff) We went to the Sunset Music shop and C got her piano sheet music for her students. then we went to Sunset Super and I got my delicious "pan de leche" bread (on sale too ... $1.89) and Kopiko coffee candy (to satisfy a craving). C also indulged and got some shrimp chips ... which apparently have no saturated fat or cholesterol! Then K arrived and we decided to head up to Tart to Tart and chill. on the way i stopped to get a Bubble Milk Tea at Quickly's and C & K got the cheesy fiesta potatoes at Taco Bell ... (like an orgasm in my mouth).
Then we hopped on the N and went to Tart to Tart. [more badness] When we got there we realized that they didn't allow outside food ... so we had to sit outside in the freezing cold! and to make things worse . after drinking that tapioca drink i really had to pee ..but someone had the key and took FOREVER!!! then when he came out i was afraid he took a stinky dump so i hesitated ... then someone else grabbed key and i had to wait again. grrrr ... after that i realized that i had to get going soon to get to work ... so we chilled fa little longer and then we split.
Next part of my little crazy saga was the boring bus ride on the freakin crowded 28!!! first i had to wait like 7 minutes in the cold and then i didn't get to sit down AND there was this creepy guy near me. (he looked kinda bum like yet not really) then i get to Stonestown and it's freakin crowded ad loud and i know that the store is gonna be a mess! : ( [well at least Aaron was kind enough to get me food at Sorabol ... yay for discount! $7 chicken bowl!!!]
and time for the horrible ending .... so i get to work and it's what i expected... a huge crazy mess. then i got to do cashier which was cool ... but later on we get a call from the DM and he says that he's coming to do a freakin audit tomorrow!!! thanks a whole freakin lot dude!!!! Which means that we have to make the store spotless for tomorrow and do all the shit that we normally do. and sin it was even more messy than usual since today was a holiday, we had an endless amount o crap to do. we had to do the 2 mountains of go-backs, recover the store. pop all the hoods for the hoodies, layer the shirts, fill in empty cabinets, dust mop, get gum off the floor, vacuum, and mop the floor. SO guess what time we ended up getting out of the store? @ FREAKIN 11:40!!!!!!!! geez man ... hella late! and since the store clock is slow ... i actually got home at midnight!!! that was the longest work day ever especially since i wasn't even supposed to work in the first place!!! i can't believe that we stayed sooo late and cleaned up for like 3 hours. and after all that, i also have to study the shrink numbers and the store questions for the audit tomorrow!!! man it's like school ... sucks!!!

well ... as for the rest of my week ... it probably won't be getting any better cause i have a crapload of assignments that i have to do. i need to take my IBUS quiz tomorrow, do the myITlab assignment by Friday, start taking the ISYS practice quiz for the access quiz next week, start my individual Access assignment, and do some journals for my ETHS class. man this semester just has sooo much crap that i gotta do.

I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!

what i REALLY want!!!!!!

i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY want to get a tattoo!

i know that i want something involving stars ... i just need to figure out exactly what that is.

what: outlined black and white star(s) --- how many, i don't know
where: either wrist, behind the ear, left shoulder, near left hip, ankle, foot ...

(but i'm leaning towards the shoulder)
when: i say before i turn 21.

i looked through all the tattoos under "stars" on http://checkoutmyink.com/
and these are the ones that i really like :

(this is what REALLY want ... but probably won't get due to the not so good hide-ability of the palcement)

i just don't want this on my arm and i'd get it smaller.

i liked this one too .. but it'd only be good if i had a flat stomach
(which i don't ... i mean sure i'd love to but even if i got there eventually i'd get chubby again)






i kinda like this one too ... but iono if it'd work on my shoulder...

well .. must do more 'star searching' to find my tattoo ... then actually get the money to go do it. and convince my madre that's it's my body and i want to get it.

yummmm ...

well today i went to school and crazy day full of homework.

but then after school ... i headed over to Anna's house to soon go to dinner with her and Kathy.
We had to stop by Stonestown ... 1. A to get her thermos cup that she left 2. for K to get her schedule and 3. for me to get my old paycheck.
Then we headed off to Sakan Bune on Geary for a srumptious sushi dinner. <3 oh so good!!! ad to top it off, we got front parking right when we got there .. and we didn't have to wait that long either! just so happened thatat 7PM a bunch of people were leaving so all of the parties on the list got seated at the same time.

after sushi ... we went to get Anna a Chocolate covered banana from Joe's and then to Irving to get Fro Yo and a Mango Delgiht drink. delicious.

and that's how my night went ... well after all the eating, i watched TV and did my homework at home.
kay toodles.

o crap .... procrastination bites back!!!

well now i've got a crap load of stuff to worry about that NEEDS to get done in the next few days. i put off reading for my ETHS class and now i have to be done with the book byt TUESDAY!!!! crappers. well at least i got a couple of my assignments out of the way ....
- MyITlab #5 ... check!
- start Individual Excel Assignment ... check!
- book review on D.O.A.T. ... check! (but i still need to revise it after i finish the book)
[stuff i still have to do:
- finish reading The Dim Sum of All Things
- finish Inidv. Excel Assign. by Friday
- do my Forum #2 post
- Study for my HM 351 Asian Food & Culture MIDTERM (on Monday) !!!
- do MKTG quiz before Monday night!!!
- IBUS quiz before Wednesday night!!!
- ACCT Homework ... due like Thursday...
-----> and mst of all i need to find time to sit down and freaking fix my laptop!!!!!

crapppp .... i am supposed to be readin right now ... but i'm not as you can see.
o wells ... i gotta read for a few minutes and then head off to work! oh joy ....
toodles

inspiration + beauty

so i went downtown to DSW shoes today before class to look at boots. well when thte ones i wanted were messed up, i didn't expect to buy anything ...

then i saw them ...
these beautiful Marc by Marc Jacobs heels!!! ohhhh love at first sight! i tried them on and walked a little and they are so comfy. AND the best thing was that they were 80% off!!!! well i wasn't gonna get them ... and i walked away and looked at soem other shoes. but then they just called to me, i couldn't pass up Marc Jacobs at 80% off. so i put them on again and said fine ... if they're returnable i'll get them. and they are refundable so i splurged! they're originally $495 ... then DSW price of $299 .... so 80% off makes them only $60!

i was skeptical on keeping them until they inspired me to be creative and make my own Marc by Marc Jacobs ads. so i'm gonna keep them. (they're a little out of my normal price range .. but they're real leather and designer) even if i don't wear them that often ... i will display them with my Jimmy Choo heels when i get my own place!!!

procrastination

man i'm always putting off my work now. i never get anything done early anymore ... always so last minute. man i gotta get out of this bad habit soon because all the work and studying is PILING up like crazy now ... like it's just growing and growing into this huge stack of crazy flying monkies that just don't stop lauging. i mean it's just all sorts of quizzes and exams, presentations, journals, reading, and other crap ... ahhh make it stop!!!

especially now that i've got work and school to worry about, i have like no time to waste ... just gotta get it done and power through.

man i should be doing a journal entry for my ETHS class andi still need to read my Hyphen mag for the same class too. argz .... maybe i'll try to read it on the bus and stuff. and i gotta do my IBUS quiz before 9PM tomorrow. and i also have to study for my Accounting exam. ahhhhhhhh. school is crazy right now. oh man, and i have to do a forum for my ISYS class.

at least i got a couple things done:
- MyITlab is finished for my ISYS class.
- ACCT homework is done.
- prep for our iron chef battle/presentation is done
- got my 10s on the marketing quizzes!

well i better try to do a journal and then get to bed cause i gotta wake up early to get to work in the morning. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

fun times

okay so it's that time again when our beautiful summer is ending/over and people are leaving/ have left/ and or are going back to school. it sucks but hey we're all at school so we can have a better life later on ... you know make lots of money and stuff.

anyways ... it's been really cool hanging out with everyone the last few days and we shall be together again. (especially last night when a group of us went to this yummy Chinese restaurant and ate, laughed, and had fun. "One Last Thing" was awesome. now i have the polaroid from "Bobby" to remember the night forever.

anyways got to go to crappy Accounting class and be bored out of my mind again.
--- oh yea the mayor Gavin Newsom spoke about voting NO on Prop 4 & 8 today at SFSU. it was pretty cool. man everyone is so obsessed with him .... but he's cool. a good public speaker too.

kk cyas.

hello from school

well i haven't been blogging much lately cause (1) school is crazy (2) i'm working all the time that i'm not at school (3) if i do have any free time then i hang with my buddies that are soon leaving to go back to school (4) i don't have internet at home [which sucks major bad!]

but that last reason is about to CHANGE!!!! i finally convinced my mom that we NEED internet. (or at least i do for school and stuff) so my dad called up the Comcast guy that i spoke to at the Irving street Autumn Moon Festival ... and he's hooking us up with the cable and internet with free installation!!!! woot woot ... and freaking Finally! now my family is more in the 21st century, next is working on getting a cell phone.

well back to doing all my school crap...
i have to do :
- IBUS chapter 3 quiz
- MKTG quizzes ... must get 10s
- ISYS excel exam and forum
- ACCT chapter 3 assignment
- read the otehr Hyphen Magazine for my group discussion

well i better stop procrastinating and get to it!!!

... just chillin with my buds ...

so the garage sale was alright ... it was freaking freezing ... like extreme SF fog and coldness!!! but whatever we drank hot chocolate and had ramen for lunch. we only made $119.25 total ... which was disappointing ish cause i wanted to sell my clothes but no one even touched any of the clothes we put out. whatever.

so today i'm gonna have lunch with Connie and this guy i don't even know. but she wants me to come so i'm going. we're going to have Japanese food on Noriega. i <3 sushi.

Sushi always makes me feel good. :D

okie dokes.

well i guess that's all.

update on the semi interesting life SLee ....

wow i haven't use SLee in a long time ... like High School PE years ... which is a while ago ...
any who ... a bunch has gone on in my life the past few weeks. i think ... i don;t think i blogged in awhile. well sorry if i repeat any info ... (wow i just checked and i haven't been on in a couple weeks.) there's a lot to say now:

so on the 2nd: i kinda threw another gathering with my friends (with the help of my buddies Becky, Jennie, and Kim) called "Mid Summer Love". which was a blast. we had a potluck at the park and then went to the beach. super fun. i think i wanna try to make it an annual thing. and another perk was that the weather was super nice... sunny and great beach weather. (which is rare in SF) after we were all going to disperse ... Mary wanted to take a group picture, so i asked the very cute surfer dude to take the picture for us. he was really nice. then we went our separate ways and Connie drove us to Stonestown to do a little shopping and to get me to work. (thanks C!) I was also able to get my free tee shirt from AE ... but my other buds didn't (stupid evil AE lady!!! she was Bitch!!!!)

then on the 5th: Kim took Connie and I up to Davis. Her dad drove us so we were able to have fun chatting and stuff in the back seat. good times. then we went to Beak's (and others') apartment to take her with us and go to Fuji's for lunch. although in order to get to the restaurant we lied on the bus and said we forgot our IDs so it'd be free. (i felt kinda bad but not really since Beak said they don't really care) That lunch was very fun ... we got lots of yummy sushi and tempura and stuff. and we had a blast eating it all. i was attempting to rap, and Kim, Connie, Becky, and I got to chat it up. i think the line i said the most that meal was "oh baby, it's just sooo good!" (which annoyed the heck out of Becky :D) I will never be a rapper ... i suck, but it is hilarious ... after lunch we took B to work and looked around at the Gallery, then K's dad picked us up so K could see the other apartment (which was the reason for the trip in the first place) which was cool ... M's kitty is so cute and playful. then he drove us to the delicious "Yogurt Shack" so we could get yummy fro yo. we got the peach fro yo and some toppings ... the yogurt chips were bomb!!!! then K's dad needed to take a potty stop before heading home, so he pulled into this parking lot and it just so happened to where the bar "The Graduate" is at. too bad i didn't think of taking any pics infront ... o wells. (oh yea it's the place where the guy beauty from CW's Beauty and The Geek goes to for those of you who don't know that place) ThenC and I slept on the way home ... and K took fugly pics of us sleeping .. well they're not that bad, but i don't love 'em. grr Kim ... biut w/e cause you took us up to Davis and i without you i wouldn;t have gotten to have these memories for this fantasic little trip!!!!! :D

and then on the 7th: i went Downtown with Connie and Katrina. very fun time ... we ate at Rubios, theb shopped 'til we dropped all around. [i think Payless, Urban Outfitters, Amer. Eagle, H2O, The Body Shop, H&M, and Forever 21] oh yea ... we stopped for a while at Starbucks so Connie could quench her thirst ... and then we went to Forever 21 and then separated to head home. i was happy cause i finally got my cool knit slouchy hat from UO. not really in my usual price range but i never see it anywhwere and i've been wanting one for a REALLY long while. it was on sale for $10 ... it's one of my must have splurges. this one is black which i do like, but i really wanted a dark charcoal grey one. o wells ... i like this one a lot. i think i ended up spending like $50 that day ... but technically $10 of that total is for part of my lil brothers' Christmas gift ... i'll probably end up just giving the things to them soon ... whatever. (OMG!!!! i think this is the first time i went shopping downtown and didn't go to Ross and Old Navy ... *shockers*)

and then on the 11th: I walked to Connie's and we went to Walgreens and then she came over for dinner and my dad experimented and made spaghetti with Short Rib meat in the sauce. it was vewry yummy it i thought. (it was an experiment cause he never kinda stewed to meat in the sauce before ... but it turned out good) Afterwards ... Michelle came over to chill out for a little bit and she came with a very delicious pie. Baker Square's Banana Cream Pie. ... mm mmm good. too bad C had to leave early .. .but then M and I just chatted and watched some good old Gilmore Girls episodes.

then 0n the 13th: my dad took my brothers, my little cousin, Connie, and I to Walnut Creek to go swimming. very fun. we played in the waater, tanned in the sun, jumped off the diving board, and swam a few laps, then left. omg!!! i didn't think we really tanned at all but after the shower i noticed all these darn tan lines ... subtle but still visable to me. grrrrr. o wells. i wanted my legs to get a little darker. too bad Kim couldn't join us ... darn TOM. roar. well we will swim again.

and finally today the 15th: Jennie and Kim came by to help sort through stuff and prep for the garage sale tomorrow. Connie also briefly stopped by, and when she arrived, she realized she had a doctor's appointment at 3:30 so she left a few minutes after she sat down. (which sucks cause she basically wasted the energey it took to get to my place:C ) Then Becky stopped by for a little while to get the sign to put up near her house for the Garage Sale.
Then my family and i left to go to dinner at my grandparents' place.

oh yes a very fun filled and event past couple weeks. and i just recently started to keep a planner and it is definitley filling up with stuff. so i guess it was worth the effort it took to make it. but i love makign things, so i would've done it anyways even if i didn't really use it this month. (just FYI ... it goes from August 2008 all the way to January 2010) Hopefully, it doesn't break before it should.

so what i have for the future is the Garage Sale tormorrow, then my i have to take my little brother to APG for his orientation on Tuesday and my cousins and auntie fro Seattle are gonna arrive that day and stay 'til Saturday. i also have work on certain days and then am planning to go to Brekeley to visit my buddy Mary soon with Kim and Connie!. but then evil school starts on the 25th ... man i need to get my books soon. (ewwwwwww)

i guess that's all the goings on in my life for now ... toodles

time for some "Mid Summer Love"

so ... i originally wanted to have a BBQ in my backyard with a few friends but now it turned into a few more people and now it's a potluck at the park.

and the event is titled Mid Summer Love by miss becky and i'm guessing it's cause we're all close friends and have love for each other and it's the middle of summer. haha

OMG! it shall be a suoer rocking fun time at the park and hopefuly we all bring food. :D

and holy crap i have to work tomorrow from 5 to 10PM (closing) and then i need to do floorset Sunday morning and i have to get to work at the glorious & wonderful time of SEVEN AM!!!! but i dom like doing florrset cause 1) i get to see all the new stuff and 2) i don't have to deal with crazy demanding customers, i can just move all the stuff around and chat with my coworkers.

i reallt really hope the new hoodie with the wings on the back (just like the graphic tee that i want) comes out because i really want it. super badly!!!!! it's so me and i already love it and i've only seen a pic in the floorset book. i'm gonna be so sad and devstated if we don't get it.

i need to ask if we have a list of the songs that we play on the store becuase i really like some of the songs that we play!!!!

well i think that's all i gotta say for now .... nothing much goes on in my life except yeterday my buddy Connie came back fro PARIS and we hung out.... OMG!!! we totally shopped out at Walgreens .... i should not have bought all that junk food, but i just HAD to use the $5 off a $20 purchase coupon ... so worth it!!! and then we went out to okazu ya for din din and then home. very fun just chillin' with my buddies!!!

ooo:
i just found out that my Kimbo is done with summer school, so now i can hang with her .... yay!
but she's gonna be gone until the 12th and then i start school like 2 weeks after that. boo.... well better cram tons of fun into those few days. :D

well i gotta go for now ... i guess i'll try to post againg next Friday .... until then ... everyone have fun!!!!

just chillin'

okay ... so i don't need to stress as much anymore cause i got my classes that i wanted for Fall 2008. but i do need to still sign up for one more class on Monday b/c State is so stupid and won't let us sign up for 19 units until after August 4th. hope i can still get in to the Marketing 431 class then. ... righ tnow there are still over 1000 seats left split between 2 classes.
**crossing fingers that everything works out ***

right now i'm signed up for ACCT 101, ISYS 363, ETHS 210, IBUS 330, and waitlisted for HM 351. i'm not looking forward to taking accounting and the info systems class, but the others should be fun or at least easy. Sheree recommended the Asian Culture class and said it's fun and a breeze and the professor is really cool. and then the Asian food class should be fun and delicious (hopefully) and International Business should be easy since it's all online. :D
i'll be sooo super happy if i get my schedule to work cause then i'd only be going to school mostly on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 810 to 325 and a late class on Mondays from 325 to 620. so then i'd have M mornings off, and then W, F, Sat, and Sun off. booyah for the 3 day weekend ... practically 4 day weekend.

and with all the time off, hopefully i'll still have my job at Aeropostale so i can work at least a few days. then i'll be able to not be a couch potato and earn some cash. (money is always good) And the new schedule is also good for my other once a month job cause i can go in on Mondays to do the statements. the only downside to this is i don't get to take ceramics ... which i really really really want to take.

well i'll continue another day ...

ehhhh ....

okay ... almost a month since my last post ... but i'm back.

so i just went up to Seattle and Vancouver and had a fantastic time hanging with my cousins and family. we had a big family reunion up in Canada and it was lots of fun: bowling, paintball, a big dinner, and a picnic. paintball was sooooo fun ... but i have this huge bruise on my leg and one on my back. i also met all these new cousins this time which was cool.

now i'm back in SF and get to try to hang out with friends ... but a lot of them are busy or away. atleast i have my awesome buddy Jennie here ... so we can hang out. although she starts summer school next week so it may not be a lot but at least she's here. and then Connie is away in lovely Paris for the rest of the month ... which is cool. i shall await her return. and others are working.

i guess that's all.
OH!!! if i don't get back on before the 25th ...Happy 20th KATHY!!!!!!!!!!!!

to my devoted readers ...

sorry i haven't been blogging much. i have lost my internet source and therefore aren't able to get on as much lately. and i've been working A LOT more now, so i don't have as much free time. i used to post at night too, and since i've gotten mostly closing shifts at Aero, i'm tired or have other priorities to do and forget about signing on.

well i'm glad that i'm getting more and more hours at work, cause i like my co-workers, and the store, and making money is always an exellent thing. the only down side to working at a store that i shop at, is that i end up buying tons of stuff. i think the past few shifts i've had, i leave with a bag if stuff. OMG! i MUST stop the madness. must save my money for the future and stuff. ahhhh. but i love the clothes. *sigh* i had some control and only bought the tank that i've been waiting to go on sale today. and i got two panties to keep up our UPT. (and i've been wanting some new undies too.) only $9 something for all of it. but i must stop NOW!!!

though, all my buddies have returned home now, which means there are a lot of outings coming up, which also means spending money too. even if i don't buy clothes and accessories, i'll probably end up spending on food. sad. but that's what happens when you end up going out all day or specifically going to eat. .... why must food be so good??? why?
-- side note: lately, when i get the closing shift, i'm not hungry when i get home at like 10:30PM. and it's weird cause that means the last time i ate was at like 4 ish. strange ...

well ... nothing else is really going on in my life. just eat, work, sleep - repeat. and some fun here and there, but not a lot. But i am looking forward to my family reunion in the baginning of July ... Seattle and Vancouver!!! can't wait to go paintballing with my cousins too!!! should be a blast. but it sucks that the exchange rate is so sucky ... the dollar is decreasing!!!!

well ... i guess i can watch some of the movies that i haven't been able to watch yet, well when i'm not working or out i guess. like i've been waiting to watch National Treasure 2, Hairspray, Jumper (again), The Other Boelyn Girl, and others i can't think of at the moment.

i guess that's all for now. hopefully my next post won't be too far from now.
peace & love! *muah*

nothing much

so Friday was fun ... i didn't have to work. so i got to hang out with Kathy and Angelica (again ... so cool cause we got to hang out twice in one week!!!) it was fun just chatting and reminiscing. fun ... Oh and i made my first batch of brownies ever... well they were from a bag but none the less still delicious. but you know what's weird? i didn't used to like chocolate-y things. a shocker but i didn't use to like choco chip cookies and stuff, but i always liked chocolate bars... yea i'm weird. but now i like them and i think it all from the one and only Kathy (aka the chocoholic ... lol)
but then i had work today ... i was supposed to work from 4 to 8PM, but i wasn't really needed because it got super slow, so i got off at 7PM instead. kinda sucked cause that means i lost an hour of pay but whatever i guess. what sucked was that i kinda stabbed my finger while sensoring some shorts ... wel actually just like super poked it ... i didn't bleed, but it hurt a lot... enough that i almost screamed out "ouch!!!" but i didn't. OMG! Lila was cleaning the clearance stuff (which she totally kicked the clothes' butts because it all got super organized and stuff :D) aznd she found a pair a jeans that would be only $2.99 ... but none of us fit a 7/8 Long. she asked me if i knew anyone who fit that size ... but i don't ... too bad. even i don;t fit that. usually i'm a 7 for jeans at other places ... but not at Aero ... which makes not feel as fast i guess. iono. but flippin' $2.99 for jeans is extremely a great deal. o wells.

oh yea .. i went to safeway with my mom and i finally got the strawberries that i've been wanting. they were never worth it to get ... but the ad had a coupon that was $4 for a 4 pound box of strawberries with at least a $10 purchase. although they are very redd... they aren't suoer sweet. boo! or maybe my tastebuds are weird today ... i guess i'll see tomorrow. th funny thing is that we went there with a list of stuff to spend like $11 to usse the coupons but we ended up spending like $20 ... and the coupon stuff added like $7. it is never safe to go shopping even if it's for groceries ... we always find something.

oooooo ... this bike that i saw in the Teen Vogue magazine is so awseome !!! it's a folding bicycle. i forgot what the company that makes it is ... something ware ... let me check ... AREAWARE. it's on the site: areaware.com under Strida. very cool. and it comes in different colors.

~ playtime with my buds ~

so yesterday night i gave Kathy a call to ask if Angelica and her wanted to hang out on Wednesday. BUT i just said "hello" and then K already asked. it is so weird how we were both thinking the same thing!!! :D and it happens more often then not. funny. i guess when you're best friends with someone you start thinking alike. lol

so the "three amigas" had an adventure ... as we always do ... and took the bus down to STEVE & BARRY'S down near the wharf. very fun especially since we haven't hung out in a while ... i think the last time was during spring break. we also had a nice chat on the long bus ride. oh yea, more icing on the cake was that the store is having their awesome "everything in the store is only $8.98 sale" ... which is pretty cool. and the store is cheap chic to start because their motto is that fashion and looking good shouldn't cost an arm and a leg ... everything is $19.99 and under.

anyways ... i ended up spending $29.22 even though after going to Gilroy i said i'd stop shopping for a while ... but of course that never happens!!! but i got three things which is definitely worth it. and even cooler, i finally got my skinny jeans!!! actually i got two pairs ... dark wash jeans and black ones ... both from Sarah Jessica Parker's BITTEN line. the other thing i bought is a pink half zip sweatshirt form Amanda Bynes's DEAR line. very nice stuff.

oh ... and my family and i had a scrumptious dinner ... wonton soup and choy ... delicious. and we also have a whole ziplock baggy full of more wonton in the freezer. yummy.

well i guess that's it for now ... man i have to close the store again tomorrow (5 to 9:30pm ... probably until 10 maybe) ughs!!!

shopping reward

so yesterday Sheree invited me to go to Gilroy with her and her family. It was very fun ... because of 1) all the great deals, 2) we just found out that we passed accounting and it's done until after summer, and 3) i haven't really been all around the outlet ever (it's huge).

I got a bunch of stuff that i didn't really need, but absolutely wanted. cheap too. i got two pairs of shoes, a bag, two shirts, and some jelly belly candy. ... all for about $68!!!

These are the green Nike's that i got ... i've been wanting a pair of Nike's for a while, i don't know why but these were cool looking. only $28 cause there was a "power hour sale which they gave and additional 30% off on the sale shoes on the back wall.

i love the Vans Outlet store ... they had a BOGO half off sale. so Sheree got a pair of blue flannel checkered shoes and i got these are the word search Vans that I really wanted when they came out. i wanna write in some words but i dunno what yet. about $16 each with tax.

then i got a hounds tooth bag from the FOX store ... i really liked it and we had 50% off one item coupons. very nice. now that i think about it, maybe i should've gotten this black, gray, and hot pink checker board jacket but o wells. it probably would've been like $18 or $20. but the bag was $10 which is alright and i don't have anything like it. oh yea ... ia also wanted this ribbed tank that was cream with my tealy colored words on it. something like LOVE YOU FOX on it in calligraphy lettering. very cute, but the coupon was only on one item ... and bag trumps tank.

i also got 2 long sleeve shirts from PacSun for only $4.23!!! it's cause they had a $1.99 red line sale. the shirts were red line because they were "a little imperfect" ... they looked normal when i tried it on so whatever. i got a baby blue and a salmony pink one and Sheree got a little darker blue one.

at the Jelly Belly store there were sample ones: pomegranate, Coldstone Cake Mix, dark chocolate, and Garlic. Sheree told me not to taste the garlic one so i didn't ... but someone else did and boy did they make a disgusting face!!! even the worker thought it was gross. i got a 7UP jelly bellies, those were very yummy, and it came in this cool bottle. i also got some other candies ... the total was $8.25 ... not extremely cheap but the stuff is cool.

I heart the word SALE!!! it;s a tiny word but it's an awesome fantastic one!!! :D

but now i have to stop shopping for a while. need to save money... no more spending.

well now i have to get ready for work ... sigh ... i have to close the store today, which i've never done before ... hope it's not too messy and there isn't too much to do. well i guess i'll see tonight.

OMG!!!!! so freaking Happy!!!!!

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so relieved and ecstatic and overjoyed and any other words that project that i am TOLLY OVER THE MOON with happiness!!!!! i just found out that i passed ACCOUNTING!!! I got a B-. Sheree just called me to go check the grades and i think that was the fastest i have ever jumped out of my seat to go do something. I was so worried and scared that i wasn't going to pass ... i was even thinking up back ups for when i didn't pass. but now i can relax and not worry about anything (well at least until final registration for fall classes which is always crazy).

also i am extra happy because i think everyone else i know that was taking accounting with the same teacher as me passed too. so awesome. i guess we were all freaked out and worried that we studied our butts off and it was well worth it.

**doing the happy dance**

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA!!!!!!!!!!

* * so basically this is how i feel right now ... despite how bad i think this pic is of me ... it shows true happiness .... (it was when i went to GG Park with Ponbore after they remodeled.) :D

... torture week ...

wow ... i haven't been on in a while ... guess i've been super busy.

well the torturous FINALS week has begun and so far i'm surviving. i had my astronomy final on Monday, ISYS final on Tuesday, and my HM 324 food final today. they were'nt as hard and crazy as i thought, i hope i passed. Now, i have 2 more final, one more day ... and then i'm FREE!!!! countdown. but tomorrow morning is the big crazy horrible tough ... wait for it ... ACCOUNTING final!!! @ freaking 8 AM. then i have time to study for my last HM 421 food final @ 410. AHHHHHHHHH....

Despite the fact that i should be crazy studying for my ACCT final right now ... everything else is according to plan. i've studied and taken the tests like i said i would and now i'm going on the last leg of the race ... and hopefully i cross the finish line in one piece. then all i need to do is jump up and down, celebrate, reward myself for all the hard work by watching the Ugly Betty and Grey's Anatomy finales, and then await the grades that will all hopefully be passing.
**cross fingers **

well ... i'll go back to studying and then next time i'll hopefully be able to keep up with the blogging and start having more interesting things to discuss ... until then
you know you love me.

yea baby ...

okay ... so the past few days have been pretty good. i did my homework, had fun, and didn't stay home and eat all weekend.

so last Friday i had babysitting and got to watch 'Chasing Zoey' with the kids. it was nice seeing them since i haven't babysat in a while, and i got some cash. (man i'm such a little kid, watching all these Nickelodeon and Disney shows. :D ) Then, on Saturday i went shopping with Becky at Stonestown and got a bunch of new clothes and accessories from Aeropostale. i got a new hoodie, a thin sweater/cardigan, a red shirt, a blue tank/top, a cool tote, super comfy black flip flops, and a pretty bead necklace all for just $40. love sales and discounts. then on Sunday, my Aunt had a BBQ at her house for her birthday. i got to try a new quick cobbler recipe (which is a slight variation for the one i made with Melisa a few weeks ago). it turned out yummy. easy and it looked great too. (should've taken a picture ... o wells) And then on Monday i worked downtown and the other doctor brought us Chevy's chips and salsa for Cinco de Mayo. muy delicioso!

and along with all these events i was able to get my some homework done and feel accomplished. booyah! also my website (e-portfolio) for my ISYS class is finished and published. i really liked doing this assignment and think it turned out awesome and shows who i am. now i kinda wanna check out web design for a major, but that probably wouldn't be a good job in the future. hmmm...

another good thing was that TV was absolutely awesome last night. man Gossip Girl was crazy good, with all these revelations in practically all the characters stories. total shocker at the end too .... a killer! (literally) Then One Tree Hill was good. Jamie is so cute. and Brooke kicked butt in her meeting with the baby. i think Brooke and Lucas will get together maybe. but hopefully Peyton will be able to talk to Lucas and maybe they will spark up again. Millie and Marvin have such funny names. then The Hills was good too. but i'm sad that it's the finale next Monday. i'm mad that Lo is being so snobby to Audrina ... driving Audrina and Lauren apart. ahhhh ... wonder what will happen next. hope it will be an hour episode. (and don't get me started on Hiedi and Spencer ... but go Stephanie for kickin' him out!) ahhh Monday nights are so good!!!!!

well ... i should get back to my 'food' papers and hopefully be able to get them done tonight.

let's hope the rest of he week goes well too.

--- CRAP ... the only bad thing this week is that the ceramics class is full and now i'm sad that for another semester i was too late to get the class. sucks!!!! o wells. maybe i can add on the first day. **cross fingers**

WOW!!!

man ... the weather these past few days has just been WOW. i love it. we need this weather more often in SF. sunny and nice enough to not need a jacket.

also, TV tonight was crazy. First it was the Big Brother 9 Finale, then Desperate Housewives, and then Brothers & Sisters. And man was the commercial for Deserate Housewives spot on. it was definitely a "WOW!" episode.

first Big Brother. OMG! reality tv never goes the way i hope. Adam won instead of Ryan. i couldn't believe that Ryan didn't win. only Joshua voted for Ryan. i guess screwing over a lot of the poeple in the end didn't help Ryan. o wells. at least he gets $50,000. and i was kinda glad that James won the favorite juror thing and got $25,000. he needed it cause he's been biking around the country with like no money. Darn A-Baller.

then Desperate Housewives was nuts. so addicting and man were there some unexpected twists. Orson admitting that he ran over Mike, then him and Susan agreeing to try to forgive him, but then Bree kicking him out. then the strange guy claiming to be Dillon's dad. [i personally don't think he's her dad ... he's so creepy ... stalker-esque.] also, the doggy for Carlos is such a cute doggy. i want one. so fluffy too. and then, here's the kicker, the twin boys were the ones who started the fire at Rick's restuarant. Not Tom or, as i suspected, Andrew. what can happen to 2 little boys if the police find out? i don't think they're that old, probably like 10. i think Lynette and Tom are probably going to try to keep it a secret, but secrets always come out on shows, especially DH. and then the preview for next week is even more shocking, Edie with Orson. unbelievable, she seriously needs to stop picking up the other girls' left overs. first mike, then Carlos, now Orson. geez woman.

oh so yesterday, Kathy and I had a nice shopping trip downtown. which we haven't done in a while. we hit the usuals, Forever 21, H&M, and then we also went to the Chanel store, Betsy Johnson, and Louis Vuitton. such pretty and gorgeous bags. [i will one day own a Chanel purse!] i ended up buying two scarves that i've been wanting. you know the ones that are long, with either a design or some nice color. i came with no scarf and went home with two. i love the teal (or as Kathy says, 'Sharon Blue') scarf i bought at H&M. it pops! i also got the $5.90 dress of the day from H&M, it's a tealy flora beachy dress. now i must go to Hawaii to wear it. :D Man do i need to stop shopping.

OH! and for the fun part. Anna helped me get the pretty Medium Chocolate Carly bag from Coach. it smells kinda like new car or something. love it! too bad i couldn't get my mom to pay for it though. o wells.

i also need to find a job. Aero better start scheduling or else!!! i need cash man.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Big Brother didn't go my way .... as always this season.

i thought A Baller and Rye Bread finally came to their senses and decided to keep Chatie Natie. but no dumbo Ryan chose to evict her and force a tie. then of course as Biotchy Sheila planned ... she evicted Natalie. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Sheila always talks about being able to trust people and that she's trustworthy. Bull S***!!!!!!
she totally lied straight up to Natalie's face this week. and then at the veto acted like she was pained to nominate Natie .... but no she really wasn't. all the diary room tapes they showed of Sheila all had her bad mouthing Natalie and saying 'sorry, you're gone Natalie'. and it wasn't really true that N was clueless about what was goin down. she had little suspicions from the HOH comp to when she was on the block. so yea. and then i mean Sheila keeps saying Natalie is the female James ... but i think she is. she has been talking crap about the people that kinda flip flop on her and then keeps saying "oh I see how it is. if that's how it's gonna be. then fine. wow." she's the nasty one. and i don't think that people can beat her in the end. everyone was nice to her and she didn't really do anything to anyone except now Natalie. ugh! i wanted razy Sheila out a long time ago.
Natalie should've listened to her gut and stayed up in the box to win the HOH. she could've won too. i think Sheila was in pain already ... and Natie was golden up there. man .... i hate this week.

man ... well now Natalie can see Matty again. dunno how much he's gonna like that though. and i bet Chelsia is gonna go crazy and be all "HAH" to her. then Joshua is gonna be super glad that Sharon is still in the game. dang it. now i want Ryan and Adam to be final 2. ooo ... when are they gonna do the new clothes episode??? they always do it. where they do a luxury comp and 2 people win a like 2 minute shopping spree from the racks they supply. hmmmmmm. i guess that'll probably be next week. cause there's 4 people now.

but i am glad that Ryan is HOH this week. though i really wanted Natalie to still be in the house and then have won the HOH ... but now i change who i'm rooting for. darn its.

how do you feel? ???????

well me .... earlier was good. then just hours maybe not even .... they took a total 180 and went straight down like everything else that ever goes up. i guess i'm on the emotional roller coaster that we call life.
today just totally got worse .... so bad that i just couldn;t take it and i felt really trapped. i frantically searched for my keys, grabbed a jacket, and bolted. i really wanted to just run and not look back .... but i just walked up my block and sat and leaned on the big wooden pole for a while. let my thoughts run wild and try to think how i've been feeling lately. then i walked up and back down and then around my block. then i finally went home.

so .... i can't live without music .... and that's how i chose to let it all out.

HURT AT FIRST, A LITTLE BIT,
BUT NOW I’M SO OVER
I’M SO OVER IT…
AND I’M OVER YOUR MOUTH
TRYING TO DRAG ME DOWN,
AND FILL ME WITH SELF-DOUBT
OHH.
AIN’T NO USE
DON’T ASK ME WHY,
YOU’LL NEVER CHANGE,
THERE’LL BE NO MORE CRYING IN THE RAIN.
THE ONLY THING THAT KEEPS ME WISHING ON A WISHING STAR
I KEEP SINGING DON’T KNOW WHY I DO
STOP & STARE, I THINK I’M MOVIN’ BUT I GO NO WHERE
YEA, I KNOW THAT EVERYONE GETS SCARED
BIUT I BECOME WHAT I CAN’T BE WHOA OA OA OA
STOP & STARE, YOU START TO WONDER WHY YOU’RE HERE NOT THERE
DO, DOYOU GOT A FIRST AID KIT HANDY ?
NOTHING SEEMS TO WORK FOR ME
BABY (BABY)
THIS SITUATION IS DRIVING ME CRAZY
DAMAGED (DAMAGED)
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS
MY HEART IS MISSING SOME PIECES
I NEED THIS PUZZLE PUT TOGETHER AGAIN
CAN YOU FIX MY H-E-A-R-T
WHY AM I OUT HERE STEADY SEARCHIN’?
DON’T TELL ME YOU’RE SORRY CUZ YOU’RE NOT
THIS JUST LOOKS LIKE THE RE-RUN
PLEASE, WHAT ELSE IS ON
GO ON AND TAKE A BOW
I DIDN’T NEED THE PAIN
ONCE OR TWICE WAS ENOUGH
BEFORE YOU KNOW IT YOU’RE FROZEN
I KEEP, KEEP BLEEDING LOVE
KEEP BLEEDING
KEEP, KEEP BLEEDING LOVE
YOU CUT ME OPEN
AND IT’S DRAINING ALL OF ME OH THEY FIND IT HARD TO BELIEVE I'LL BE WEARING THESE SCARS FOR EVERYONE TO SEE
TELL ME HOW I’M SUPPOSED TO BREATHE WITH NO AIR
IT’S SO HARD FOR ME TO BREATHE
TELL ME HOW I’M SUPPOSED TO BREATHE WITH NO AIR
CAN’T LIVE, CAN’T BREATHE WITH NO AIR
THERE’S NO AIR, NO AIR
SO MANY TIMES I WANNA SAY WHAT’S ON MY MIND
ALL YOU EVER GOT TO DO IS CHANGE THE STATION ON YOUR DIAL
WHAT MORE CAN I SAY
MY FEELINGS … HAVE GONE WAY OUT OF CONTROL (CONTROL)
WHAT MORE CAN I DO
I’M HOLDING ON YOUR ROPE,
GOT ME TEN FEET OFF THE GROUND
I’M HEARIN WHAT YOU SAY BUT I JUST CAN’T MAKE A SOUND
YOU TELL ME THAT YOU NEED ME
THEN YOU GO AND CUT ME DOWN, BUT WAIT
IT’S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE
IT’S TOO LATE
BUT I’M AFRAID…..
IT’S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE, IT’S TOO LATE
I SAID IT’S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE, IT’S TOO LATE

SONGS:
- over it by Katherine mcphee
- teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift
- stop and stare by one republic
- damaged by danity kane
- under my nose by Colby o’donis
- Take a bow by rihanna
- Bleeding love by Leona lewis
- No air by jordin sparks & chris brown
- I know by billy miles
- Apologize by one republic

GO .... STOP ... GO ...

yea my life lately has been pretty go stop go. at least with school.
every Wednesday and Thursday i do the same thing. go to school in the morning ... go home for lunch or whatever ... then go back to school for one last class. it's kinda pathetic how my life really doesn't have much else besides school. i mean i'm not complaining or anything ... b/c i like not having any other responsibilities right now. i do need a job ... but i don't think that i could handle my classes this semester and a job. i remember working last Nov to Dec and i always felt tired after getting off of work. so if i had to do that now and do crap for Accounting or ISYS or whatever, i don't think i'd learn very much and my grades would probably suffer a lot.

i also do the same repition when practicing driving. i go with my dad to pick up my brothers pretty much everyday. and it's the same thing ....same streets all the time. go to the school ... stop and park .... get the bro .... go back home. kinda taking my wanting to drive feeling away. just not feelin it anymore.

but TV will make me happy tonight ... new OTH and HIMYM and THE HILLS. although i do need to do my acct homework too. i guess i'll try to do it after dinner and then off to TV land!!!!

why???????

it just never ends ....
as i blogges about before ... whenever i have a fun or good or happy or joyous day/time, going home ALWAYS always ALWAYS kills it. it's like i'm not supposed to have happiness or something. it's just so frustrating ... you want to know why i'm not skinny? it's because whenever i'm depressed or pissed or just down i eat. and seriously ... i bake things because i like to bake and since "i'm fat" (according to certain people) i get bagged on for making all these things. they say "you need to watch what you eat. we're gonna only give you half protions and hide all the junk food. make sure you can't touch them. but i'm sure you'll just go find them at night time and eat them anyway! just look at all the things you been eating. custard with that extra sugar stuff. chips. cookies. pie. whipped cream. that's why."
i mean if you're going to turn around all the nice things i do then fine. i'll just stop doing what i like to do and stop making things at specific times for certain people when i know they like/want it. if you're saying you need to cut down on things and only point out all the stuff that i made for a special occasion and ate because you need to taste your food first to makae sure you're not giving people crap ... then fine i'll stop. GOD. i try to be nice and make things that will put smiles on people's faces and things ...but all i get in return is "oh you're fat you shouldn't eat that. look all you eat are fatty things. man you have fat legs." no thanks .... oh this is so good. excellent job. wow. great. i just get made fun of and put down.
it's like do you not think that i know that i need to lose a little weight? do you think i only make these not so healthy things to purposely egg you on and give you more amunition to throw at me? do you not think i know that my legs are big? do you think i just loike to bake to be in the way and bothrer you? do you think i that telling me all these negative things don't hurt? do you think that saying all these things is a boost to my self esteem? what the heck goes through your mind when you just constantly say these things to me? what ... oh lets make her feel good and say "man look at your legs. getting a little pudgy."

man ..... nothing good ever lasts. never. i minus well just throw away that box of mango jello/pudding because i'll probably get ragged on for eating that too.

why?????????????????????????????????

on a lighter note ...

you know what's funny?

my IYSY teacher said a few classes ago .... that it's funny how we won't dare speak to the stranger next to us in class, or raise our hand in class, but we are willing to put more personal things online for the whole world to see.

it's just funny how our minds work.

in my isys class we do these silly little brain teasers each class and here's todays:

22 55
36 good 90
71 188

so what do you see here?
(i noticed that this doesn't really show up properly but you still might get it)
if you don't know .... then i'll tell you in the next blog.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm really not having a good week at all.

it's full of crap that i don't want to do, family that i really don't want to be around for countless reasons, all sorts of thoughts sloshing around in my mind that i can't stop thinking about, and just life sucking right now.

again, today started off wonderfully. i got my FREE Jamba Juice this morning (got the pomegranate passion all fruit smoothie), got a seat on all the buses i took, got to class early, understood the material, and didn't have too much bus troubles. then i get home and it all goes down the crapper! i get called a retard for the way i word things, get called fat and "you need to lose weight" speech as always, and now i just feel all shitty again.

i tell my mom that i got a huge bruise and i need the "teet da" medicine and i get ignored. then i ask her again and i get yelled at. i say "i'm trying to ask you where it is and you don't help at all!" then she goes "Oh, well it where it always is ... unless you moved it." then i go look there and it isn't there and i get yelled at a little more. like "come on ... open your eyes then" kind of crap. and before i can go back and look for the stuff, she stops me and grabs my leg and says man your legs are huge and that i need to lose weight. then i finally find it and rub it in and it hurts like a mother freakin' bloop!

so they've made me cry three days in a row now. i mean not balling and crying hysterically, but some tears and runny nose and just making me feel really horrible. so Sunday i get scolded because my brother asks all these dumb questions and i try to explain it to him that he's wrong and then i get in trouble for bickering cause he doesn't stop. made me wish in stayed home cause then none of it would have happened. then Monday they put down my major again. and now today i try to get help with my bruise and i get called fat! i mean i know that i have chunky legs. i always have and most likely always will. and there not even fatty. they're actually sore for some reason in my thighs. and if you poke my legs they're hard but in the back has a little flab. and my calves are and always will be triangular. i have runner's legs, but i don't run (and don't like to for that matter.) and especially now, they're even more defined than ever. ugh ... i hate my legs.

i mean i know that i need to stop eating junk food and exercise. i want to, but it kinda hard when my whole house is full of it and that i don't really have the motivation to go to the gym. nor do i really have the time to go either. i have a crapload of stuff that's just piling up because i procrastinate so darn much nowadays.

man .... i just want to go outside and scream and then go sit somewhere other than in my home and draw and watch the ocean waves crash or something.

I REALLY NEED TO GET AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what a bloop day ...

today kinda sucked. it started off okay ... even though i had a midterm. i was able to sleep in a little ... studied and read all the stuff for the Astronomy midterm ... then got to class early. though the buses were really crazy packed ... i was sitting and the girl standing next to me was extremely close to me. she was like leaning on me and her sling bag was like on me and then swung in front of me. she didn't move either ... even after i pushed her bag and stuff. then the girl next to me blew her nose and all this tissue paper dust flew all over the place. ewwww!!!! then she got off at Stones and then the lady sat next to me and she smelled really bad. kinda like medicine but with a hint of funk. gross. i tried to hold my breath from Stones to State but i had to take a couple breaths in between. the first one i sucked in all that nasty smell and then i turned away to breathe. then i tried to like jump off the bus to breathe good air.

I hate the bus. weird smells, gross people, inconsiderate people, all sorts of other not happy things.

then i got food with Anna after our midT which was good. but then when i walked to the bus stop the sign said 23 minutes. Outrageous!!! it didn't come for like 35 minutes. then i decided to get off on Taraval to catch an L bus cause they usually come quickly, but not today. i had to wait like another15 minutes. then the 3 block walk was full of weird people that i would have like to avoid. then i was able to relax in the comfort of my own home and watch some TV, eat, and be happy. food always makes things all better.

then since my dad twisted his ankle today, he asked me to drive to the school to get my brother ... which i didn't want to do ... and then there's all this other crap when we get home about dishes. geez ... i mean i try to soak something and since he didn't see it and spilled water on the floor, i get in trouble. args.

then during dinner there's always the never good "you should be a .... " talk. today it was a nurse. i've told my mom that i can't do blood, yet she still pushes it. then my dad jumped in and it made me feel kinda bad. i mean it's like everyone is against what i want to do. i wanna do marketing, but no one really supports it. although today was partly my fault because i asked about getting a blood test and then it spiraled into this. all i wanted to know was how much it was and my mom said it's free for us. then they ask why and i want one because i think i might have a thyroid problem. then my dad started saying things that basically meant "you're crazy to worry about that so young. you're too paranoid." i mean i probably don't but when i went to the doctor a few months ago, she felt my throat and asked if i have a history of it in my family. i don't but i can still have it cause it's very common. i really don't wanna get a blood test but i should just do it to calm my nerves and thoughts. and now i also have trouble swallowing. i think it's cause i'm sick with a sore throat but i don't remember feeling like this before. so many issues.

and to top it all off ... i have all this school work that needs to be done this week. Accounting problems that shouldn't take too long, then a mini quiz for that class too ... and i forgot to buy more scantrons. ughs! then my Thursday class has a small research paper due, and my group presentation is in 2 weeks and we haven't started our research. i also have to go to a Mexican restaurant with my group so we can build a menu as part of the project too ... but that's just on Thurs. after class. i also have a quiz for my ISYS computer class on Thursday... and i haven't been doing so good on those. must study this time.

i'm really not liking this week. school sucks.

right now i just want to stay in bed and watch hours of Gilmore Girls and not have a care in the world. at least "The Hills" is on tonight which will be good. another full hour too. though i hope that since they've been showing 2 episodes the past two weeks, that there will be less days for episodes. uh-oh.

right now my only calmer is music (stop and stare by one republic, i know by billy miles, damaged by danity kane, teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift, take a bow by rihanna, and some others), television, eating, sleeping, and friends.

when will the craziness be over? [ right now i think never! ]

i need art in my life again to feel better .....

i really need to just get away .... far far away!!!!!!

life is...

what is life? is it good or bad, happy or sad, up or down, what is it?

well for me right now it's a crazy roller coaster that doesn't seem to end. it has it's ups and downs and then it has all these loops, twists, turns, tunnels, dips, spins, stops, drops, corkscrews, inversions, hangs, and all sorts of wacko things. when ever i have a good day or something that makes me feel good happens, once i get home something will just kill it. without a doubt, my fun, happiness never seems to last long.

first it's school, then it's homework, then it's family, and then it's trying to find a job, then it's dealing with a (half) job, then it's finding time to have fun, and then it's "trying" to clean things up in my room, then something else will add to the hectic spin cycle that never stops. i guess it's like the ride at Disneyworld, Space Mountain. you're on a little roller coaster thing, buckled in, and it's this fast whoosh of all these twists, turns, drops, stops, ups, and downs all in the dark. i don't really know where i'm going, what's coming up next, or what the end will be. (actually for the SM ride, i know how it ends and basically what happens because i've been on it a bunch of times, but you know what i mean.) but the ride called Sharon's Life is totally unknown. it's new, big, crazy, and untested ... so who knows what will happen next. but one thing's for certain ... it will definitely involve the people i love, food, tv, and LOTS of clothes and SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now who's in?

heyo ....

hi all ... i had fun today. my cousins came in from Seattle and San Pedro, and we had our mini adventures for the day.

i went to Costco, Safeway, and the produce store to buy supplies for my Spring Break 'fiesta' tomorrow. [which should be super fun .... 1) seeing people back from college 2) playin' SingStar and 3) stuffing our faces with yummy foods. ]


then we went to Quickly's on Irving and got boba/tapioca drinks. i got the Coconut & Mango Delight drink. man did we stop traffic in there! 8 people who ordered 7 different drinks. a taro, 2 diff. strawberries, 2 milt teas, and 2 diff. mangoes. YUM! odering reminded me of the 'Dude Where's My Car' movie. she was like "and then .... and then .... and then ...okay" funny. then the older girls went to Stonestown and did a little shop-til-you-drop-ing. i got 3 shirts for $5 each @ Macy's and a $1.50 grey velvet belt at Aeropostale. then we went back to the grandparents house for a delicioso din din. stew. ooo but man did the lady take FOREVER to ring me up! took me less time to walk from Macy's to H&M. geez. although she was nice. i'm also debating on if i should buy the 'outfit' at Aero or not ... not really worth $26.




ahhh .... Spring Brake is going great so far!!!! hmmmm .... i wanna do a movie day soon. haven't had a movie -a- thon and junk food fest in a long while. oooo we usually make sushi and pig out for thosse too. ahhh good memories.

SPRING BREAK!!!!

finally it is spring break .... i think all of us college kids have been in dire need of this break.

well today i finally was able to sleep in and then got to hang with my Ponbore buddies. we had our 2nd annual Spring Smash and laughed it up like the hyenas that we are. we ate Vietnamese food on Irving, then got 'dofu fa' @ Sunset Super, went back to th Becksters' house and played Wii. (i like boxing and tennis) I had a rather tasty seafood and rice noodle soup and finally tried the (expensive) mango + coconut delight drink at Quickly's. delicious and very filling. then at night i stopped by Noriega Terriyaki House to wish Theresa a belated happy bday and see old friends.

then Anna, Kathy, and I went to Kelton's house to watch "The Hills" premiere. it was so good. but i can't believe how Lauren is making some seriously stupid decisions. and i think Hiedi is finally seeing Spencer for the dumbo jerk face that he is. the preview fo the rest of the season looks VERY interesting and exciting. when will Lauren and Brody stop being so wierd aned get together? why do so many things have to come inbetween them? i wonder what will happen when Stephen comes back? Did Justin Bobby change? Where will Whitney go to work? so many questions, when will we know the answers??????? ahhhhhhh ... so impacient and can't help but be all ansy with anticipation for the rest of the 8 or so episodes.

OMG ...... BB9 was crazy. Adam is soooo wierd. he got baby food for his HOH room. he tried to play it off like he doesn't really like it, but i bet he really loves the stuff. i mean the fruity ones probably taste good (like apple sauce ... which i love), but i dunno about the dinner food ones. i don;t think i could do pureeded meats and stuff. and iwas afraid Adam was gonna make a bad decision but he didn't. i'm glad James and Chelsia are up on the block. although i do like Chelsia, she's a little snotty and coniving. i love her hair though. :D the veto should be really good. and i can;'t believe Natalie figured out the Evel Dick returning, all from the 8 curtains in her room. crazy ... i wonder what he's gonna do. maybe he'll just host the veto or something. wh knows. and the '21' screening should be interesting. i want to see that movie too.

woohoo!!!! Spring break time. relaxation, fun, friends, tv, movies, yea baby.

crazy good tv ...

so today school was dreadful ... i'm scared for the score for my accounting midterm. ahhh ... and now i still have to worry about my ISYS quiz on Thursday and i also have 2 SAM assignments due on Friday. ugh ... but today in lab i understood the stuff and i made a new friend ... Megan. she's cool and i found out that there are other wierdos like me that color code my notes and plans and stuff. i'm such a nerd.

and then when i got home, i watched some tv and made little mini cheesecakes in a muffin tin. they taste good, but the crust fell apart, i guess i didn't compact it enough or not enough butter. swirling jam on top is cool, makes them all pretty.

and now the good stuff .... TV:

BB9: totally not going the way i want it to. why did James have to come back? ugh ... he's a good player, it's just he's gunning for the people i'm rooting for. dang it. i wish Matty would have actually played for the veto, so he could be safe. man. and then stupid Sharon has to be so analytical and crap and figure out that Matt was the 3rd vote. then change James' mind and put up Matt for eviction. Args. i'm so pissed. but there's still hope that Matt stays. **cross fingers** and Natalie was angry ... she's so funny: "Oh James, you're just so full of crap! That's why your eyes are so dark brown." Hilarious. but none the less true. James, just as eveyone else, went back on his word.

OTH: it was the 100th episode, and boy was it a big one.
(okay don't read this if you haven't seen the episode and plan to.)

Mama Karen returns and she's back with Andy. Lily is so cute. Brooke and Peyton are at crossroads in their lives. Peyton loves Lucas, and he's still unsure. then the wedding, i was screaming nooooo when Lucas said "I do" and then was shocked with Lindsay. she said no. all because of the book. yay for the Comet. [LS+PS belong together ... soulmates] then Stupid Nanny Carrie returns. kidnaps Jamie. causing drama and caos with everyone. and what Dan did was a shocker. I think Naley is good now. family brings everything back. Brooke wanting a baby adds a twist to the story. i wonder what will happen. adopt? Owen? Chase? Invitro? what? can't wait for the next episode. .... April 14th is soooo far from now. ughs ... building up the anticipation huh CW?

now i must study for my HM 324 midterm.... yuckers.

frustration ....

i am angry with Forever 21 right now and annoyed with Aeropostale. so on friday, they forgot to put my leggings in my bag and then i had to call and see what to do. so the woman said they have my leggings and i can come on monday to get 'em. so i go today and it takes like an hour for me to finally get them. the manager was no help and they were kinda rude. i think i;m gonna call corporate and complain. geez. and she even said "well it lokks like she did fold them and put them in your bag." (after reviewing the tapes) well she didn;t b/c when i spoke to her on the phone she found them. so if she found them how could she have put them in the bag? idiots. then when the other girl finally came back with them, she just kinda threw them at me. args ... stupid reatil people.

then Aero keeps telling me different things. i go there on friday and Lila tells me to just do the last page of the booklet. i can do the rest another day. then Carlos calls me on sunday saying i have to come back and finish it. then since i am technically on their list, i should get scheduled if hey need people. and today this girl asks if they're hiring. and to my surprise ... they are. so i mean if they need more people, then why don't i get used? and i asked them if they needed to hire people before and they said no. ahhhhhhh .... so contradicting. i know that i don't need them but, i really hate searching for a job. ughs ...

i'm also REALLY not ready for my accounting midterm. i can't study and i feel like i really don't know the material. why do we have to be tested? why? i wish it was open notes. that'd be so much better.
ahhhhhhh .... i just want to have a day off and just watch a bunch of movies and lounge around. but instead i have to worry about school and take stupid midterms and crap.

school and life are sooooooo FRUSTRATING.

the only upside to today was that i found out that i passed the JEPET, which means i'm done with English classes FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea ... i so thought i wasn't going to pass, and the percentages/statistics were not very encouraging ... (60% fail). but phew ... that is one thing i don't have to worry about anymore.

now i have to buckle down and cram for this crazy midterm ......... oh joy!