The first day back was pretty crazy, getting up at 5am for MAAD, and then Tuesday getting up at 7 for work as well was so tiring. Then having roll call practice in the afternoon after class was fun but also more tiring. I'm so physically and mentally exhausted with everything going on. my body is sore and i really need a massage and just some time to rest. and there is so much happening with school too, that i don't want to do it anymore. i just cant wait for this week to be over with.
and on top of all that hectic craziness, i'm also torn on what i really want now. i've been thinkin' about the future and everything and i'm just confused.
what do i really want now? where do i want to be? who do i want there? when will i get there? how is it all going to play out? is it worth it? will it pay off? will it really help at all? WHAT SHOULD I DO???
right now i honestly do not know what i want. i don't know what to do 100%. i don't know, and there are things that are pulling me both directions.
all i want right now it to just get through this week and then maybe things will clear up.
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