another day goes by ...

i didn't do much today. i just stayed home and decided to do a little spring cleaning. my room is in dire need of some fixin', because it's super messy. so i decided to start with my clothes and went downstairs and got an empty box to put the pieces i don't really wear anymore in. i was actually able to empty like 1/2 of my top drawer and organize the other ones and make them more flip-through-able. now i have a box of shirts that i may wear like once or twice a year that i don't know where to put. and i also have room for all the clothes i just bought in the last few months. i'm a total junk collector and cannot bear to part with my things. especially my clothes! even though i know i probably won't miss it if it's gone, there is always that slight chance that i'll want it and i can't have it anymore because i got rid of it. maybe i can turn some of the old tees that i loved into throw pillows or something. ooo ... a quilted tote. hmmmm ...

i was supposed to continue the cleaning and do my desk and floor too but that didn't happen. if it's something i really dread doing, i'll start it but it will take me a few days to actually do it or finish it. [and i really hate cleaning stuff.] okay so, my room may be a mess and look like a tornado came through it, but i can still find things in the wreckage. i prefer having things in piles in certain spots because then i have all my things in 'organized messes'. now isn't that an oxy moron? i swear whenever my mom attempts to clean up a little in my room, it looks good but then i need something and it's not where i left it. she'll put it somewhere that i wouldn't put it and then i go crazy searching like a wild animal. so sometimes i think it's a good thing to leave things the way they are. [[sorry if this doesn't make any sense]]

ugh ... i really need like a week off from school to just put all my worries and stress on hold and be able to actually get some things done. but if i really did get this time i'd probably not use it to do hw and clean, i'd probably just watch a bunch of tv and go out. there's just too much stuff and too little time. makes me wanna scream and just give up.

don't we all just need a little more time?

let's see ... what's on my mind? :
- crazy ISYS homework that i don't really know how to do.
- messy room that i need to clean.
- good job that i still haven't found. (although i'm not really looking very hard.)
- HM 421 midterm on Thursday that i need to study for.
- HM 421 project that i need to start.
- worries about if i picked the right major or not.
- what will my future hold?
- my weight ... man do i need to stop eating so much and head to the gym.
- accounting homework and the next midterm.
- driving/ getting my license
- boredom and loneliness from time to time.
- life in general ....

oh... i just remembered that yesterday, i put together my new stereo system that my daddy got me. he got it for me because i busted the other one. i was kinda mad at myself and felt really bad because he got the other one for me just like 3 years ago and i broke it. he had his old one for like years, cause it just broke like two weeks ago. (and that thing was from before my parents got married.) even i used it for awhile. i needed a new one because the subwoofer blew out and stopped working (which is the power source for the system). when i told my dad it broke, i found out that the subwoofer had an off switch and since i never knew that, it's been on for the last like 3 years. which is why it broke. i was always annoyed with stupid power light that was always on too. i didn't want to ask for a new stereo, but my dad just asked last Wednesday if i liked this one from the Costco ad and i said sure. then he came home with it and yea.

i feel kinda bad yet happy because all my electronics are breaking and my parents actually bought me new ones. Bad because i feel like they just buy me things allk the time and i dont; always act appreciative towards them for all the things they do. Happy because i got new stuff and didn't have to use my savings. my mom paid for my new pretty black iPod (which was a shock) and then my dad got me this stereo. and he also knows that my VCR for my tv isn't working very well anymore. i think i'm gonna just keep this tv and watch my tapes in the living room or my brothers' room and not let them get me a new tv until like next yearor awhile form now. and i'll try to save up for a new one too. like what i did for the one i have now. (i split the cost with my parents $300 each)