thinkin ...

Spring Break has come to an end and now it's back to reality.

The first day back was pretty crazy, getting up at 5am for MAAD, and then Tuesday getting up at 7 for work as well was so tiring. Then having roll call practice in the afternoon after class was fun but also more tiring. I'm so physically and mentally exhausted with everything going on. my body is sore and i really need a massage and just some time to rest. and there is so much happening with school too, that i don't want to do it anymore. i just cant wait for this week to be over with.

and on top of all that hectic craziness, i'm also torn on what i really want now. i've been thinkin' about the future and everything and i'm just confused.

what do i really want now? where do i want to be? who do i want there? when will i get there? how is it all going to play out? is it worth it? will it pay off? will it really help at all? WHAT SHOULD I DO???

right now i honestly do not know what i want. i don't know what to do 100%. i don't know, and there are things that are pulling me both directions.

all i want right now it to just get through this week and then maybe things will clear up.

aww ... a lil something about guys

1) Guys may be flirt​ing aroun​d all day, but befor​e they go to sleep​,​ they alway​s think​ about​ the girl they truly​ care about​.​.​.

2) Guys are more emoti​onal then you think​,​ if they loved​ you at one point​,​ it’​ll take them a lot longe​r then you think​ to let you go, and it hurts​ every​ secon​d that they arent​ with u

3) Guys go crazy​ over a girl’​s smile​ ( :

4) A guy who likes​ you wants​ to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Givin​g a guy a hangi​ng messa​ge like “You know what?​.​.​uh.​.​.​never​ mind.​.​”​ would​ make him jump to a concl​usion​ that is far from what you are think​ing .And he’​ll assum​e he did somet​hing wrong​ and he’​ll obses​s about​ it tryin​g to figur​e it out.

6) If a guy tells​ you about​ his probl​ems,​ he just needs​ someo​ne to liste​n to him.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​.​You don’​t need to give advic​e

7) A usual​ act that prove​s that the guy likes​ you is when he tease​s you

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!​!​!​

9) Guys use words​ like hot or cute to descr​ibe girls​.​ They rarel​y use beaut​iful or gorge​ous.​ If a guy uses that,​ he loves​ you or likes​ you a whole​ heck of a lot.

10)​ If the guy does somet​hing stupi​d in front​ of the girl,​ he will think​ about​ it for the next coupl​e days or until​ the next time he spend​s time with you

11)​ If a guy looks​ unusu​ally calm and laid back,​he’​s proba​bly fakin​g it and he is reall​y think​ing about​ somet​hing

12) When a guy says he is going​ crazy​ about​ the girl,​ he reall​y is.

13) ​When a guy asks you to leave​ him alone​,​ he’s just actua​lly sayin​g,​ “​Pleas​e come and liste​n to me”

14) ​If a guy start​s to talk serio​usly,​ liste​n to him. It doesn​’​t happe​n that often​,​ so when it does,​ you know somet​hing’​s up.

15) When a guy looks​ at you for longe​r than a secon​d,​ he’s defin​itely​ think​ing somet​hing

16) Guys reall​y think​ that girls​ are stran​ge and have unpre​dicta​ble decis​ions and are MAD confu​sing but someh​ow are drawn​ even more to them

17) A guy would​ give the world​ to be able to read a girl’​s mind for a day

18)​ No guy can handl​e all his probl​ems on his own. He’s just too stubb​orn to admit​ it

19)​ NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!​!​!​ Just becau​se ONE is RUDE doesn​’​t mean he repre​sents​ ALL of them

20) ​WHEN A GUY SACRI​FICES​ HIS SLEEP​ AND HEALT​H JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALL​Y LIKES​ YOU AND WANTS​ TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSI​BLE

21) ​Even if you dump a guy month​s ago and he loved​ you he proba​bly still​ does and if he had one wish it would​ be you to come back into his life

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spring break :)

finally on spring break!!!! :D

i must say this break is much needed and is off to a great start.

kicked it off with the successful ASK Nikko surprise party for Glenn Coco and Jan! still can't believe we stalled for 4 hours, but we actually did a lot. and then just to see their reactions and everyone there was the best!

the weekend was fun. very chill with family and friends. friday fam bam dinner and chill chuma movie night. then saturday started with a spur of the moment blood test :|, made sushi, then hit up BOC with the loves at night. and had a lovely convo in between ;). And sunday was family filled; Han San in the mornin, then chilled at the grandparentals' house all day. MJ and then bbq for dinner. yumm

Monday was very fun. even though i started my day with a fail, by not wakin up to hit the gym, it kept getting better. first i got a surprise that i never thought i would, but it was good. closure and change is good. then Geli picked me up with Crystal and Ben to go to the Cartano's bbq / gathering in Santa Clara. then we had a day fun filled with food, friends, and laughter. good game of volleyball, playing with Spottie and Oreo, and then some hilarious karaoke to end the night! good times good times. ;D

and today, Tuesday is going well too. had lunch with the fam bam at the Kome Japanese Buffet. pretty good. the sushi and desserts were really good. just sucked that we had to wait a while to get seated, and then when we were seated we had to wait in line again to get food. but the waitresses and workers were very nice, unlike some other places i've been to.

then tomorrow gonna chill with my Co Jennifer!!! print the newsletter and then dunno what. haha, then dinner for Grandpa's birthday, and then out and abouts with the loves! hehe

now to make the most out of the rest of this week, and have tons of fun!

what to do, what to do???

guess we'll have to wait and see ...

WANT

i want:

- coffee ice cream

- french fries

- sushi

- one other thing . . . . .

- and for things to start being on the up and ups again.

(but honestly, there are only a couple things that truly matter on that list, but i'm not gonna say which ones.)

Better Get It Right

Really feeling like this song right now.

It's nice being in this place again.

game on boo.

Better Get It Right - Natalie ft. Max Minelli

Hey... oh... yeah... (better get it right)
Oh... oh... yeah... (better get it right)

[Chorus]
better get it right
don't wanna be your part time lover
better get it right
if you want my love for sure
better get it right
Don't wanna be another number
cause you and me go together boy

you know I make it right for you
because I certainly adore you
I got your back, you notice that,
I'm holding it down (for you)
I'm always here when you need me
I give the best to my baby
I get it right, I'm morning light,
baby can you feel me

[Bridge]
I really wanna be your only
I'm not just trying to be your homie
and you could be the one to hold me
when I'm lonely inside
you could be the one to touch me
and you could be the one to love me
and you could be the one to kiss me
get it right, yeah

[Chorus]

I give you all of my sweetness
it's sad to say you're my weakness
I give it up, all that I have
so everything is for you
if I could be the only girl
we can get it right
I'm telling you boy right now
just let me be the one

[Chorus]

[Max Minelli]
You got issues
cuz I make pimp moves
and I break yo heart
and you need tissues
cuz I make you cry
and I know you try
you say bye-bye
can't lie I die
and now my situation
in the air like a pop fly
should you let go
or should you hold on
one day
I promise Imma put a smile on yo face
I left a trace of my cologne on your pillow case
you wanna teach and
I gotta get money from dishin
and your broken heart needs a' fixin'
but you don't super woman xray vision
you look inside me and see my mission
to get it right

I really wanna be your only
I'm not just trying to be your homie
and you could be the one to hold me
while I'm lonely inside (yeah)
you could be the one to touch me
and you could be the one to love me
and you could be the one to kiss me
get it right, yeah

[Chorus]

life has been fun lately

been having ups and downs the past couple weeks. but for the most part it's been really fun.

school is a pain, as usual. but that's never gonna change.

friends are always the best!!!

family has been mehhh ... sadly more often then not i'd like to get away

work is no more, sad but okay. gonna miss my lovely coworkers mostly, and of course my income.

--- im just enjoying life's perks and ups, and taking the downs in stride. it's all good for the most part.

live, laugh, and love

emotional roller coaster

these past few days have just been an emotional roller coaster!

but dont get me wrong, it was tons of fun.

hellos, goodbyes, encounters, adventures, outings, surprises, beginnings, ends ...

it all started on Friday when Venus surprised us all and came back to the city! man love that crazy girl, so happy she came back once more before she left for Taiwan! ate at B Star on Clement. yum yums. then we went out to Fluid and i got to see my friend Melanie after it's been YEARSSS!!! that was an interesting night. quite funny. hawaiian shirt, houndstooth pants, asian justin bobby... LOL

then it was crazy crazy saturday. first was revealing, the day started kinda sad cause i found out my grand wasnt gonna be there. :( but it was okay, it was a nice day out and we all had fun! and now im a triplet too! hehe then we all went to Yoshi's for one last goodbye outing with Venus. that was all crazy!!! OOO ... all before even getting inside was happy, sad, mad, and more. but after all the hecticness of getting in and paying and figuring out how to get the others in, we enjoyed the rest of the night. danced the night away! and due to one other minor detail, made the night all the more fun! all i gotta say is HAH! :) [but i felt so bad that all the others left and couldnt get in. stupid people not letting us in until like 1030. rawr!!!]

and then it was the sad goodbyes and hugs when we got back. :( miss you Venus!!!

and then also a start of something new possibly ;) hehe ...

sunday was crazy but fun. did Academy of Friends Gala all day. not what i thought i signed up for but it was a good and i guess fun experience. besides the mean people and the stupid dragon lady! haha but after we finished out shift, i have to say it was fun just letting loose and chilling. we took a group pic in the photo booth and then danced a little to the DJ. fun fun funsss. and we got a bunch of glasses too! LOL

and now for today. the bittersweet last day at Aeropostale. *sighh* but it was fun. did some transfer for some of our stuff. then we went to lunch at Olive Garden, which was yummy, but had it'd down side. (bad service, but im not gonna get into that.) then we went back, worked my last like 10 mins. and then it was time for more goodbyes and hugs. :( gonna miss my coworkers! but it's not the last time, we'll keep in touch and stuff!

--- all in all a very fun and eventful weekend. a little too many goodbyes than i would like, but no tears. it's not goodbye forever, it's until next time!

i dont know exactly what's next, but i know im ready for whatever! :)